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it's never easy

to keep people out of

the stock footage


inside your brain

that brain,

by the way,


always trying

very hard

to turn everything


you see

feel

experience


into your own personal little

you-tube

what you want


what you

need to

feel to make it all matter


this is

about

one


person

who is not me

and i will never be him


and the stock footage

instructs and

dumbfounds more than soothes


he spent his

life

stubbornly in pursuit


of a life

he could not make

but in trying to make it


he made

a life

and that life


can't be validated

any other way

outside of


a sort of respect

you can't

explain


you can't verify or

even

compute


you can't joke about it

either because it was

his joke


first he wanted to be a

clown

and clowns are


well

they are clowns

second


he wanted

to be a construction-worker

but he never got to go there


and in all his years and

in everything he

left behind


he became his own

spectacular ghost

even while


alive

and he haunts

me right now


without one word

without

spookiness


just this emotion

i can't

unscramble


or detail

this is about

him and what is left of him


that's all i got


Link to Raymond's archive: http://raymondthundersky.org/archive/

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