- Keith Banner
Good Question
what is not disappointing?
that's a good question
i guess
lightning bugs ask it
what is not disappointing
bitch?
and then that glare of all the
meaninglessless
the anvil/mirror
falling on one's head
sunlight off of chrome
smoggy little asides
beasts of light
etc etc etc
and so what is
not disappointing? i really want to
fucking know
maybe pieces of paper
eight and a half by eleven
blank
like every morning
hell -- mornings
they aren't usually that disappointing
poptarts
snickers
golden globe awards
some days
the sweatless sky
blue as a plastic toy
asking for nothing
just absolutely nothing
a dumb smile
a gift you didn't even ask for
maybe some people
are
not disappointing?
trying to think
i don't know
um
cher?
that one kid with brain cancer?
i'm lost
disappointment
is every weed in the garden
every garden
disappointment moves
in like
some cliche
villain
some mustache-twirling frog
or other freak
sitting its ass down
with a bag from taco bell: want
some?
but life
and that's the whole stupid point
life is
goddamn disappointing
the more you live
the more you want to live
even though
you know it's not worth it
and of course
the marble floors at a mauselum
the blue light
shining like
it's just meant to be
mythic halls of
disappointment
shimmering
toward
unexpected pleasures
dot dot dot
