Good Question

what is not disappointing?

that's a good question

i guess

lightning bugs ask it

what is not disappointing

bitch?

and then that glare of all the

meaninglessless

the anvil/mirror

falling on one's head

sunlight off of chrome

smoggy little asides

beasts of light

etc etc etc

and so what is

not disappointing? i really want to

fucking know

maybe pieces of paper

eight and a half by eleven

blank

like every morning

hell -- mornings

they aren't usually that disappointing

poptarts

snickers

golden globe awards

some days

the sweatless sky

blue as a plastic toy

asking for nothing

just absolutely nothing

a dumb smile

a gift you didn't even ask for

maybe some people

are

not disappointing?

trying to think

i don't know

um

cher?

that one kid with brain cancer?

i'm lost

disappointment

is every weed in the garden

every garden

disappointment moves

in like

some cliche

villain

some mustache-twirling frog

or other freak

sitting its ass down

with a bag from taco bell: want

some?

but life

and that's the whole stupid point

life is

goddamn disappointing

the more you live

the more you want to live

even though

you know it's not worth it

and of course

the marble floors at a mauselum

the blue light

shining like

it's just meant to be

mythic halls of

disappointment

shimmering

toward

unexpected pleasures

dot dot dot