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Ivory

that night

friday night videos

thompson twins


hold

me now

warm my cold


and tired

heart

my grandma's bathtub


huge and deep

claw-footed

inside


her tiny bathroom inside her

2 -br house on

pearl st


2 am

and i had just started

as dishwasher


at bonanza

steakhouse

terrified


about getting fired

the dishroom

backed up all goddamn night


with tubs of

greasy

shitty dishes and pots


and pans

and me trying to shove it all

through the machine


like

i knew what i

was doing


shaky

scared

but hanging in there


i was

19 and

living with my mom and sister


and grandma

until mom and us got our section 8

apartment in east tn

dad finally admitting

all the stupid

shit


him + his lady friend

his gambling etc

and so


we move down

there to where

it all began anyway


and i get this

job and one weekend

mom, my sister and grandma


go visit

some relative in

chattanooga down there


me having to work and so

tonight

so damn tired


2 am remember

grease-covered and

all alone


new bar of

ivory soap

the soap that floats


that bathtub

so deep you might lose

who you are in it


in a good way

lose

who you are i mean


and the little b+w tv

grandma watched jeopardy on

the only show


she ever

watched

well that and wheel of fortune


but i turned it on

and it was

hold me now


stay with me

(stay with me)

let loving start


and that smell of

ivory

kind of like what you might


smell

during a beautiful funeral

some kind of


unnamed

flower

not even


real

enough

to name




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