The Sadness that Makes You Feel the Sadness

when she died

it was weird

how much it took out of me

hell

i did not even know her

but it was like

everything was gone

that is what

"weird"

kind of means

right? everything gone

and her voice

a shrill bird cry from

inside a closet filled

with

too many dresses

dresses

you can't really wear

now

dresses that are

more like addresses

places

you lived in

you remember

only after

someone else dies

she was

the

last vestige

of what it means

to be

alone

and crying

in a trailer

she was the trailer and the

mountains and

the diet coke

she was

what you believe in when you

stop

believing and you

just hear the

radio

plaintive

and fixed on the sadness

that makes you

feel the sadness